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Varenne Schwarz, My Quiet Upiór

Table of Contents:

Chapter 1. The Salt Air Between Dread and Hope

Chapter 2. A Stranger's Silence at Breakfast

Chapter 3. What the Wind Carries from the Ridge

Chapter 4. The Weight of Eyes Unseen

Chapter 5. The Emptiness of What Should Fit

Chapter 6. Among Cabins, a Heart Unmoored

Chapter 7. A Touch That Was Not Meant

Chapter 8. What the Mineral Steam Refuses to Hide

Chapter 9. Warnings Over Warm Milk and Dough

Chapter 10. The Small Grace of a Mended Thing

Chapter 11. His Hand in the Ruins

Chapter 12. Embers from a Winter Illness

Chapter 13. The Bench Where She Decides

Chapter 14. A Confession Beneath the Veranda

Chapter 15. What Unfolds When Restraint Falls

Chapter 16. Rain Against Tin, Silence After

Chapter 17. Twilight and the Unmaking of Walls

Chapter 18. Tea, Mist, and the Shape of Belonging


„My Quiet Upiór”


Chapter 1. The Salt Air Between Dread and Hope

The stone steps of the Natura Sanatorium were slick with afternoon rain, and I climbed them slowly, my suitcase bumping against my leg with each step. The building loomed above me—three stories of weathered limestone that seemed to absorb the grey light rather than reflect it, its tall windows dark despite the hour. I paused at the entrance to catch my breath, though it wasn’t the climb that had winded me. It was the weight of return, the strange heaviness that had settled in my chest the moment the bus from Żywiec had crested the hill and I’d seen Solny Zdrój spread below like a memory I’d tried to forget.

The entrance hall smelled of floor polish and something mineral, medicinal—the scent of healing waters that had drawn people here for over a century. My shoes clicked against pale marble worn smooth by countless feet seeking cure or comfort. Behind the reception desk, a woman in her fifties looked up from a ledger, her face settling into the practiced welcome of someone who had greeted a thousand arrivals.

“You must be Aldona,” she said, already reaching for a key from the board behind her. “We’ve been expecting you. I’m Mrs. Kowalska—I manage the front desk.”

“Yes, thank you.” My voice sounded strange in the high-ceilinged space, too young somehow, as if I were still the girl who‘d left this town for university seven years ago. “I’m sorry I’m a bit late. The bus—“

“The buses are always late when it rains.” She waved away my apology with the ease of someone who understood mountain weather and its effect on schedules. “Dr. Nowak mentioned you’d be starting tomorrow in the therapy wing. You’re in room 317—third floor, end of the corridor. The radiator runs hot, but the view makes up for it.”

She handed me the key, heavy and old-fashioned, attached to a wooden tag with the room number burned into it. “Dinner is at six in the main dining room, breakfast from seven. The staff usually eat a bit earlier to avoid the rush. You’ll meet everyone properly tomorrow.”

“Thank you,” I said again, hefting my suitcase. The weight of it reminded me of everything I’d packed, everything I’d left behind in my small apartment near the brewery square. My books on alternative medicine, my swimming things, the waterproof jacket I’d bought for mountain walks I’d rarely taken in the city. All of it condensed into this single bag, this single choice.

The corridors were wide and hushed, painted that particular shade of institutional cream that suggested decades of repainting without ever changing the color. Through open doors I glimpsed treatment rooms, a library, elderly guests moving with the unhurried pace of people with nowhere urgent to be. This was what I’d wanted, wasn’t it? This slower rhythm, this connection to something more essential than the urban pulse of Żywiec.

Room 317 was exactly as described—small, functional, with a narrow bed and a desk beneath a window that faced the forested slope. The radiator beneath the sill ticked steadily, though it was summer and shouldn’t have been running at all. I set my suitcase on the bed and went to the window, pressing my palm against the cool glass.

The forest was closer than I’d expected, the first line of spruce perhaps twenty meters from the building’s edge. In the grey afternoon light, the trees seemed to press forward, their dark geometry broken by wisps of mist that clung to the upper branches. Somewhere beyond that green wall was the ridge of Lackowa, invisible now in the low clouds. I’d hiked there as a teenager, before I’d learned to want more than these mountains could offer.

Or thought I’d learned. Because here I was, twenty-seven and back where I’d started, with a physiotherapy degree and three years of city practice behind me and nothing ahead but this—this sanatorium job, this small room, this view of endless forest that made my chest tight with something between claustrophobia and longing.

I began unpacking slowly, hanging my few clothes in the narrow wardrobe, arranging my books on the desk. The room smelled faintly of lavender sachets and old wood, and beneath that something else—that mineral scent again, as if the healing waters ran through the very walls. In Żywiec, my apartment had smelled of beer from the brewery, yeasty and warm. I’d grown used to it, even fond of it. But it had never felt like home.

Neither had the relationship that had ended six months ago—quietly, mutually, with the exhausted recognition that we were performing intimacy rather than feeling it. Neither had the friendships that revolved around after-work drinks and weekend plans that blurred together. Neither had the job at the modern clinic where I’d felt increasingly like a technician rather than a healer.

“This is temporary,” I said aloud, testing the words in the empty room. They fell flat against the walls. Because even as I spoke them, I knew they were a lie. Nothing about returning to Solny Zdrój felt temporary. It felt like fate, like gravity, like something that had been waiting patiently for me to stop fighting it.

The forest outside the window seemed to pulse with its own life, darker now as afternoon edged toward evening. I could hear it breathing—not wind exactly, but the collective exhalation of a thousand trees, the whisper of growth and decay that never stopped. In the city, I’d missed this. The weight of green life, the way weather was a presence rather than an inconvenience, the sense that the human world was just a thin layer over something older and stranger.

But I’d left for a reason. This place, these mountains, this suffocating closeness of a small town where everyone knew your family back three generations—I‘d needed to escape it. And now I was back, and the dread that pooled in my stomach was matched only by a treacherous flicker of hope. 

Maybe this time would be different. Maybe I was different. Maybe the woman who’d taken this job, who’d packed her life into a suitcase and climbed those rain-slick steps, could find what the girl who’d fled never could.

Or maybe the mountains would swallow me whole, the way they’d swallowed so many others who’d thought they could leave and return unchanged.

I turned from the window and continued unpacking, my movements automatic. Tomorrow I would start work. Tomorrow I would meet my colleagues, learn the routines, begin the slow process of building a life here. But tonight, in this small room with its too-hot radiator and its view of impenetrable forest, I let myself feel the full weight of what I‘d done.

I’d come home. And home had been waiting.


Chapter 2. A Stranger's Silence at Breakfast

The canteen bar was tucked into a narrow room off the main corridor, and I almost walked past it that first morning, following the smell of coffee more than any sense of direction. Wood paneling the color of dark honey covered the walls, and brass taps gleamed along the back counter despite the early hour’s dim light. I needed caffeine before facing my first day, before meeting colleagues and learning routines, before pretending I knew what I was doing in this place that was both deeply familiar and utterly foreign.

That’s when I saw him.

He stood behind the counter with his back partially turned, arranging glass tumblers on a shelf with movements so slow they seemed underwater. Tall but somehow diminished, as if gravity pulled harder on him than on others. His shoulders, broad enough to suggest former strength, curved inward slightly. When he turned at the sound of my footsteps, I caught my breath without meaning to.

His face was pale as candle wax, with shadows beneath his eyes so deep they looked painted on. Dark hair—was it hair?—fell slightly over his forehead, styled carefully but with something off about the texture I couldn’t place. He moved toward the counter with visible effort, each step deliberate, and I found myself frozen in the doorway, one hand still on the frame.

“Coffee?” His voice was quiet, unhurried, each word chosen rather than simply spoken.

“Yes. Please.” I moved to the counter, hyperaware suddenly of my own movements, the sound of my shoes on the wooden floor, the way my breath seemed too loud in the narrow space. “Black is fine.”

He nodded and turned to the machine—old but well-maintained, the kind that required patience. I watched his hands as he worked: long fingers, careful movements, a slight tremor he seemed to compensate for with practiced precision. The silence stretched between us, but it wasn’t uncomfortable exactly. It was concentrated, like the air before a storm.

“You’re new.” Not a question. He set the cup before me, and our fingers almost touched as I reached for it. Almost.

“Starting today. I‘m Aldona. Massage therapy.”

“Tymon.” He stepped back from the counter as if maintaining a careful distance. “I‘m usually here. If you need anything.”

The words were ordinary. Everything about the exchange was ordinary. A new employee getting coffee, meeting a colleague, exchanging names and basic information. But something electric ran beneath the surface, something that made my skin prickle and my pulse quicken. When our eyes met—his were grey-green, like lake water under overcast sky—I felt exposed in a way that had nothing to do with being new.

“Thank you,” I managed, gripping the coffee cup harder than necessary. The heat through the ceramic grounded me, reminded me this was real, I was really here, really starting over in this place I‘d tried so hard to leave behind.

He nodded again, already turning back to his careful arrangement of glasses, and I understood the dismissal. But as I left the bar, coffee in hand, I felt his attention follow me like a physical touch between my shoulder blades. When I glanced back from the doorway, he was watching me with an expression I couldn’t read—intense and distant simultaneously, as if seeing something beyond or through me.

The feeling persisted throughout the morning. During my orientation with Dr. Nowak, while learning the treatment room layout, meeting the other therapists, reviewing patient files—always that sense of being observed. Not unpleasantly, exactly, but with an intensity that made me hyperaware of my own body, my movements, the space I occupied.

“Everything alright?” Dr. Nowak asked when I dropped a clipboard for the second time. “First days can be overwhelming.”

“Yes, sorry. Just adjusting.” I bent to retrieve the papers, face burning. Because how could I explain that I felt watched by a man I’d spoken to for less than two minutes? That his pale face and careful movements had lodged themselves behind my eyes like an afterimage?

By afternoon, I‘d convinced myself I was being ridiculous. The sanatorium was full of eyes—patients, staff, the portraits of long-dead founders lining the hallways. The feeling of scrutiny was just new-job nerves, the weight of returning home, the strangeness of this in-between place where people came to heal or wait or sometimes both.


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