Sin Eater’s Embrace

Chapter 1. A Stranger's Meal in the Stone-Cold Rain

The whisper-grey granite of Sorrow's Hold seemed to mock me now, its imposing elegance no longer a symbol of stability but a cruel reminder of everything I had lost. My father's body was barely cold in the ground when the creditors descended—faceless men with inked ledgers revealing debts that stripped away our aristocratic home, our silver, our very future. I stood in the street, a lady with nothing but the dress on my back and the bitter taste of betrayal in my mouth, watching strangers cart away the remnants of my life.

Father had gambled it all away. The aristocratic name of Meridia meant nothing now—merely a hollow echo of privilege that served only to deepen my shame.

Our servants departed quickly, their loyalty dissolving like sugar in rainwater. Most couldn't meet my eyes as they gathered their meager belongings. Only old Marta lingered long enough to press her roughened palm against my cheek.

"Find honest work," she'd said, her eyes watery with pity. "Keep your head down. The world isn't kind to fallen nobility."

How naïve I'd been to believe that my education and breeding would count for something. I tried first to secure a position as a lady's companion—a respectable role for a woman of good birth but diminished circumstances. The scorn in Lady Havisham's eyes as she dismissed me still burned like acid on my skin.

"Your father's disgrace precedes you," she'd said, her voice honeyed with false sympathy. "We couldn't possibly... the scandal would be unbearable."

I attempted next to become a nurse for the infants of noble families. My soft hands and gentle voice seemed suited to the task, but the whispers followed me there as well. The nursery matron had stared at my fine-boned hands with suspicion. "Too delicate for real work," she'd muttered, turning me away.

At the Silver Swan Inn, I offered to serve food and manage rooms. The innkeeper eyed my dusk-blue gown—once considered simple for a lady but now absurdly fine for a servant—and laughed. "You'll run at the first dirty chamber pot, my lady," he'd mocked, the title twisted into an insult.

I even approached an alewife, desperate to learn the brewing trade. She'd seemed kindest of all, explaining patiently why I wouldn't do. "You've never worked with your hands," she said. "The other women would resent you. Find something suited to your... previous station."

But there was nothing. My father's debts had poisoned every well.

The skies of Sorrow's Hold wept constantly, as if mourning alongside me. The misting rain soaked through my once-fine clothes as I walked endlessly, my shoes wearing thin. The city, which had once seemed a collection of grand manors and elegant markets, revealed its crueler architecture to me. Bridges arched over the small canals that divided the districts, and beneath them, in what locals called the Unders, the poorest citizens huddled in the stone drains that carried away rainwater.

I found myself there as darkness fell, my stomach a hollow drum, my limbs shaking with exhaustion and cold. The other unfortunates regarded me with suspicion—a bedraggled aristocrat was still an aristocrat to them. I pressed myself against the damp stone, trying to make myself smaller, invisible. The bridge above rumbled with the passage of carriages carrying people to warm homes and hot meals.

A figure moved through the shadows of our miserable sanctuary. Taller than most, with a quiet, deliberate gait. He paused before me, and I could feel his eyes assessing my sorry state. I expected mockery, perhaps even threat—I had learned quickly how vulnerable a woman alone could be. Instead, he crouched down and offered a small bundle wrapped in cloth.

"Eat," he said simply.

I unwrapped the bundle with trembling fingers. Inside was half a loaf of dark rye bread and a small wedge of hard cheese. My pride warred briefly with my hunger before surrendering completely. I ate quickly, animal-like, barely tasting what was surely the most precious meal I'd had in days.

"Thank you," I whispered when I finished, finally looking up at my benefactor.

His face remained mostly in shadow, but I glimpsed intelligent eyes in a handsome, if somber, face. He nodded once, then rose and disappeared back into the night without another word.

The next day brought more rejection. I begged at kitchen doors for work scrubbing pots, sweeping floors—anything to earn a crust. My appearance betrayed me; my hands too soft, my speech too refined, my clothing—despite its growing shabbiness—still marked me as an outsider. By dusk, I trudged back to the bridge, my feet bleeding in my worn shoes, my stomach once again a howling void.

The same collection of desperate souls huddled there, their faces gray with resignation. I claimed the same corner as the previous night, wrapping my arms around myself against the penetrating chill. As darkness deepened, I saw a familiar silhouette moving along the edge of our shelter. The man from the previous night. My mysterious benefactor.

Something pulled me to my feet. Without conscious decision, I followed him, keeping to the shadows. He moved with purpose, his stride suggesting he knew these hidden pathways intimately. When he slowed at the edge of a small, forgotten courtyard, I gathered my courage and stepped forward.

"Please," I called softly. "Could you... is there work? Anything at all?"

He turned, and this time I could see his face more clearly in the faint moonlight that penetrated the clouds. Strong features, intelligent eyes that held both wariness and something else—perhaps amusement?

"You don't want the jobs these people do," he said, his voice educated despite his simple, dark clothing.

"I'll do anything," I insisted, hating the desperation in my voice but unable to disguise it.

He studied me for a long moment, his expression unreadable. "I am a sin-eater," he finally said, each word precisely placed.

My eyes widened in instinctive fear, the blood draining from my face so quickly I felt lightheaded. Sin-eater.